
I started meditating years ago when my kids were really young. They were 17 months apart, the older with major sensory issues and the newborn with major colic. It was not a pleasant time to say the least. I thought that meditating would help me remain calmer than I was managing on my own. Henry didn't sleep through the night until after Emma was born so I was running on sleep deprivation for almost two years by then.
I picked up the book,
Idiot's Guide to Zen Living, which seemed like a good starter with more of a secular perspective. I wasn't interested in the Buddhism element so much as a rough understanding of underlying teachings and the meditative part. Since I've been prone to anxiety for my entire life it seemed as good a time to start as any. At first I found that meditating was extremely difficult - nearly impossible to calm down my ever running mental gymnastics. But I managed to get the hang of it.
Zen meditation is different than other forms of meditation and you'll find all sorts of differences out there from transcendental meditation to yoga based meditation and others. I liked the focus on breathing that came with Zen meditation versus concentrating on a mantra or some Sanskrit word that had little meaning for me. After practicing this for a while, I got very interested in the physiological changes that occur after meditating.
Most people know of the physical benefits of the practice, namely less anxiety, lower blood pressure, heart rate, metabolic rate and the like, but few people focus on the neural aspects. In other words, how meditating changes the brain and how taking advantage of the brain's neuroplasticity, you can change behaviors and how you react to different situations. Basically, short-circuiting our evolutionarily advantageous fight or flight response that is essentially worthless in most modern circumstances and does more harm than good.
At the time, I bought a second book,
Zen and the Brain, which can double as a weapon due to its girth. Written by a neurologist and Zen-Buddhist, the author goes into such things like how EEGs show us that the act of exhaling helps physically quiet the brain and how our limbic system responds to stress and threat.
Over time I fell out of the habit and found myself too busy to dedicate the time for daily meditation. After this last holiday break, I decided to get back into meditating for a variety of reasons, most health related. For the last three weeks, I've been meditating for 20 to 30 minutes a night for about 6 days a week. Some days it's harder to squeeze in than others but, just like exercise, you have to make room for it.
Some days it's easier to meditate and some days it's incredibly frustrating as I find my mind going over mental lists or wandering down rabbit holes of planning or worry or what have you and I have to keep bringing myself back to the concept of letting the thoughts drift away. Which is, essentially, the deal with meditating. Sitting there, you know your brain is going to kick into gear. After a while, though, (sometimes sooner rather than later), you get to this point where you can ignore the thoughts and then they don't come anymore. It's somewhere between sleep and that sort of spaced out feeling you have getting a massage or sitting in a hot tub. Just, relaxed.
Last week, I received a review copy of the upcoming book,
Power Up Your Brain: The Neuroscience of Enlightenment, which is part neurology and part crazy ass shamanism. Having a degree in anthropology, I'm probably a little more open to some of alternative belief systems out there but, also having a science degree, I'm a little more skeptical about stringing neurological terms to off-the-wall beliefs. When hanging quantum mechanics on to an argument for mysticism, I get a little leery. However, all in all, there are valuable merits to this book in spite of the woo-woo factor. And, I'm still trying to find my power animal, although I don't think it's going to be something cool. Probably a beaver.
In any case, while meditating might seem to some to be a frivolously self-indulgent waste of time, it has many physical merits to it in addition to just calming the mind. And, I do find that I can get to that "happy place" even when I'm not meditating. Even if I'm just out for my daily exercise and spying a break in the clouds.
Additional reading: Buddha's Brain: The Practical Science of Happiness, Love and WisdomNote: Argh! There be affiliate links in this post. Consider yerself warned.